Oh Baby !

I'll Be back, full post Tomorrow.. I promise.

<3>

Im Soo Tired..

Im sooo sick and tired of these cat and mouse games,
Bending & twisting myself to make sure your happy, to keep you around .
Its terrible .this whole situation is terrible & honestly , Im exhausted .
I fell for you something hard, My heart as mentioned in a previous poem ,
was on my sleeve for you , There wasn't anything I wouldn 't do to keep you happy .
to make things work & sadly , you didn't see that.
You meant the world to me , but you didnt see that either .
I guess this is it, reality smacking me in my face , telling me to get out of this dream state
& back to reality .
I guess if your meant to be in my life, your gonna be around.. but Im not pushing it anymore.
im not bending anymore, I can't find myself to do it anymore .
I quit . I give up ... .
I miss you & I miss what could've been .
But Im off that , no more dwelling .

Time to focus on me.

Final Goodbye;

I wear my heart on my sleeve

Cause it was no use in my chest

You couldn't see it when it was at its best.

So I gave it to you .

Rearranged it for you .

& out of all the things in the world,

what's the thing you would do ?

You left .

Cause I wasn't right one night ,

I wasn't at my best .

My emotions ran rapid,

& My heart it beat slow .

Cause of all the things in the world it refuses to let go .

Damn these memories.

Damn these thoughts.

Damn this heartache .

Damn this heart.

It can't breathe,

Your like the respirator ,its you it needs.

Revive it?

So we can relive this .

My family tells me to get it together

but its you I miss .

When Im out its like Deja-vu

Each & every thing I see reminds me of you .

I cant shake it , I cant help it.

I wasn't love, but strong feelings,

I felt it .

Oh the things I would do ,

to solidify a me & you .

I'd put myself aside , & just have you as a focus,

I think about it over & over again

But I admit Im Hopeless.

the thought of something again is worthless.

I say that now , But in the back of my mind,

Behind the entirety of my thoughts,

are the memories of the days

when you ruled my heart.

IM BACKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKKK!